Over the rainbow

  Time sure passes fast. Today marks the end of my 4 years of secondary school life. Can't believe that it's been 4 years. Still remember the funny looking secondary one newbies and now i'm already leaving the school. It's all the tears and laughter that we've all been through together. However, i don't really appreciate secondary school life that much. All the while i've been waiting to get out of it. Now it's a step forward to my dream i guess. The last step shall be the day when i'll take my result slip. 


  I've finished watching Romeo X Juliet. It's very nice. It may not be the exact version of Romeo and Juliet but the feelings for them is still there. The way how they can die for each other and even scarifice for each other is remarkable. Their love is so deep that i somehow envy them to be able to find their love of life. I guess this kind of love can't be found in real life. It's all stories and fairytales...


  Recently, i'm so into panda! I want to have a panda as my pet! How cool is that! Anyone who can meet the requirement shall get a chance to date me out! Okay, i'm berserk again...

  Currently it's September holidays now. I guess this will be the final holiday until o level total ends. I'm trying so hard to study now. However, my brain doesn't seem to be cooperating with me. All my brain wants is to relax and have fun. Such a typical useless and lazy brain. Kelly and i were saying about the structure of brain. Obviously kelly has a bimbo type of brain with little curves and it's smooth. For this holiday, i'm free from kelly's torture! She has gone to Hongkong with her boyfriend to celebrate her 21st birthday. As expected, i haven't buy her present yet. I guess i need to do some shopping during the holidays too...


  Woke up early in the afternoon. Prepared myself for kelly's torture, Then, went over to Fan's house for overnight mahjong again. Didn't lose a lot i guess but huiming was the big winner for the night. Ordered breakfast in the morning as usual. Uncle ban hasn;t return from Thailand yet. Wayne's busy accompanying the girlfriend. Jingjing gone to Genting. Wenhan had to camp in. Crap! Where's everyone!?


  My online shopping items have arrived! Went to collect it with chiewyen and also did some shopping. Also, to repair my useless phone. My phone is less then 6months old and it's already faulty. How lousy can it be! Another sad thing - my items were not as pretty as they're supposed to be! I was kinda of disappointed when i tried them on. Probably its because i ain't as pretty and gorgeous as those models. Also, one more bad new - my mom went overseas again! She went with her friends and left me in Singapore even though i need not go to school. It's clear that she doesn't have the intention of bring me there. So be it then! I'm happily in Singapore!


  After this post, i guess a long long time later then it'll be alive again. Now, i shall put my blog to sleep again...

   A blog without update is as good as dead, so now i shall revive my blog. Tomorrow marks the last day of this school term and also Teachers' day. Also, it will be a real short day for me. Over the years, my interest for events like National day, Teachers' day is dropping. I used to be look forward to all those events as i know i would enjoy myself and it's only once in a year kind of event. Now, i only look forward to the holidays. I've changed in terms of character and thinking. However, i couldn't really remember how i was like before. I tend to remember now and forget the past, i really mean forget by completely forget. I guess thats human... 


  Just a couple of days ago, i realised that i actually do have a wonderful family, truly wonderful. I have a mother who loves me more than anything, uncles and aunts who pamper me and cousins who dote me. What more can i ask for? I love spending time with my family, especially when everyone is present. Sometimes, things are just there but i've never stop my footsteps to notice them. My family love me but i've never stop and appreciate their love for me. Im a unfilial daughter i guess but my mother never complain even for just once. 


  During the holidays, i'm gonna try to study and really study. I want to at least give me best shot before i'm gonna be announced as the loser. Kelly's gonna be away for the holidays to Hongkong. Let hope that she'll get something that i'll like for me! I've also set up my mind to work real hard to earn money during the long break. I wanna get a big present for my mother's birthday. I guess i have just enough time to earn that much money. With aims and goals, i guess i'll succeed. It's my last lap...

  Its been days since i last posted. Therefore, i shall post one when i'm free now. Nothing major happened the last few days actually. The 7th, huiming and wayne came over to my house. It was rather awkward having people im my house and mahjong session with my mum. Then we went over to fan's house. Its rather friendly of her. The 8th of this month was my dearest huiming's 19th birthday. We had some celebration for her. And went out with chiewyen on the 9th. Did a little bit of shopping and catching up. Not forgetting kelly, she's been nagging me all the time. I've been seeing her twice a week nowadays. Oh how wonderful can that be! 


  During the holidays, i've gotten myself a couple of new hobbies. Reading "Breaking Dawn" and playing The sims 2. The book is fantastic! How is it possible for love to be so strong and deep. At times i wish i am Bella being loved by Edward deeply. I seriously envy Bella. I wonder how many good deeds she had did in her previous life to be loved by Edward and Jocab. I guess i'm too addicted to the book to the extent that i think that every part of the book is real life. How i wish vampires, werewolves, Edward and Jacob exist. I would actually give up everything for all these to be real. The way Edward loves Bella is too much to the extent that i probably won't get to find someone who loves me the way Edward loves Bella. Dreams. Fantasy. How i wish all these can come alive. I can't stand being another day of human. It makes me so sick.


  Enough of it. Oh crap! Tomorrow school gonna start again. Test papers, homework, lectures, stress they are all coming back tomorrow! How i wish this holidays can get just a little bit longer. I don't want any worries but fun. Living my life staying at home is definitely far better than having to go to school and take o level. Maybe turning into vampire can solve everything...

  I'm so in the mood to blog today. I guess i can blog about anything under the sun right now. Just came back from Junction8 with huiming. We'd watched 'Money Not Enough 2'. Well, i can't say it as a great movie but at least a not so bad one. The ending was a sad one. The mother died in the end in order to save the life of her granddaughter. I guess that's what every parents or grandparents would do. Not every son or daughter is treating their parents how their parents deserve. Take me for an example, i hasn't been a good daughter for the past 16 years. I've been taking everything that she did for me for granted. I haven't been appreciating her in my life. I guess i would regret real lot if i don't start appreciating her now. She's been the one who is always there 24/7 unconditionally. But when she needs me, where am i? Outside with friends enjoying myself while she's suffering alone. I've been selfish, very selfish. I hate the fact that i'm a normal human being who is not appreciative of everything in my life. Maybe if i'm borned with some illness, i'll appreciate things so much better. Thats the way humans behave i guess. Unappreciative. The more i write this, the more i hate that i'm human. 


  Moving on to happier matters.. Recently i've been counting down for prelim as though it is the real o level. It's so stupid of me. In my mind, i just want everything to end so badly. However, the sooner i want everything to end, the sooner i have to face it. I just wish to keep running away from everything. I'm just not those type of people who can welcome challenges with open arms, i prefer running away from it and as far as possible. I'm a coward in another word. I feel like this post is a post for self- reprimanding. My brain is functioning wrongly so it explains my weird behaviour. Whatsoever!